Why does it feel like something is missing?

Because I didn’t complete what I started in America? Because I wasn’t convinced by the situation that led me back to Japan? Because I feel like I’m not achieving anything, am moving toward nowhere, or not having someone in my life right now? 

Maybe the closest one is that I have almost no confidence in myself. 

Am I healthy? Yes. But Do I have the perfect body? No.

Do I have friends to call when feeling lonely? More than one. But do I have a significant other that I can rely on? No.

Do I have an academic degree? Yes. But do I have a stable job? No.

Am I capable of pushing myself to continue what I’m passionate about? Absolutely. But do I know what I should keep on doing? I have no idea.

Seems nothing is good enough, I’m not good enough. This might be the phase a lot of people go through at least once in their lives as well. Every time the sensation of anxiety and indescribable unsatisfactory toward ourselves floods up from the bottom of our stomachs and fills our minds, it makes us unable to appreciate little things, give ourselves credit in what we are capable of, and objectively observe to find possibility and hope.

I guess it’s time to start the appreciation list and self affirmation.